Okay, so, I'm one of those people who SHARES my feelings, problems, etc., so if that makes you uncomfortable then you should STOP READING right now. I REFUSE to apologize for being who I am, & I AM a "sharing" kind of person.
I'm 47 years old, have a 27 year old daughter & a 3 year old granddaughter. I also have a list of chronic health issues & due to that I am on disability & no longer able to work. {I was a nurse for almost 20 years.} I discovered about 2 years ago that I am going through MENOPAUSE!! At first I was sort of happy .... I mean, no more periods?! .... HOORAY!! But, now that I am experiencing all of the other .... *ahem* .... "JOYS" of menopause I am DEFINITELY NOT HAPPY!! At least, I THINK, these are due to menopause, though I'm not sure because I have discovered that none of my doctors, {who, I might add, are all MEN}, seem to be the least bit concerned about my complaints. But LADIES, how would you feel if you were overweight & struggling to lose it, the hair on your head,{which used to be full, thick, & is naturally curly .... I used to consider it my best feature}, was thinning & your hairline was receding, your eyelashes, {which also used to be one of my best features, because they used to be REALLY REALLY LONG}, were thinning & falling out & barely noticeable now, & your eyebrows, at least half of them, were also thinning, AND you have hot flashes that make you sweat like a Florida construction worker??!! It's a really frightening feeling, not to mention REALLY EMBARRASSING, especially when you're almost 50 years old & SINGLE!! What man would want a woman who looks like I do now?! Oh yeah, you can spout all your comments & advice about how I'm a good person, smart, funny, blah, blah, blah .... but let's face it, humans, & men especially, are VERY SUPERFICIAL!! Since we can't see right into a person's heart, mind, & soul, we judge them right away by how they LOOK, right?! I don't want to spend the rest of my life alone, I just don't. I want a man to love me & make me feel special. I feel like everywhere I look everyone but me has someone that treats them like they are their "one & only". There's a saying, "to the world you might be one person, but to one person you might be the world". THAT is what I want!! When I tell my doctors they say, "you're going through menopause", blah, blah, blah. When they test me for a thyroid issue the blood tests always come back normal, & surprisingly the last time they tested my hormone levels they were also normal!! SERIOUSLY?!
So, there, it's out there. The worst problem in that list is the SWEATING!! It seriously makes me think not just twice, but three, four, etc., times before I ever leave the house to go ANYWHERE. I have stopped going to church because it has always been, {to me at least}, REALLY REALLY WARM in there, even before this unbearable sweating started, so I can't even imagine how it would be for me now. Oh, and I am also on 3 medications that cause INCREASED SWEATING, plus fibromyalgia, {one of my health issues}, can also cause hot flashes, because it's sort of like your body's temperature gauge is broken. GREAT!!
Don't judge me. Don't call me "vain". I'm human, that's all.
